CONFESSIONS OF A CONFUSED MIND




" Every successful relationship starts with lies and deciet. This is where most of the relationships end, so its a better way to start off here."- Nicolas Cage, Lord of war. 2005.

............. to be continued....

Well, living with a canadian, eating like a canadian, talkin with mostly canadians, lifes pretty different. saw this movie, lord of war with my canadian roomie, movie was great, but these lines were amazing. There were quite a few but i guess this stuck to me. Makes sense doesnt it? Im not saying one should follow it, but it is nevertheless interesting. I guess now that im so freakin lonely and low in life, small things like these are starting to amuse me more.
Home is where the heart is, then i guess i have more than one home. Never knew ill miss home so much. By home i mean cincinnati, i never felt like im foriegn there, always with desis, living talking, hanging out, eating everything was desi. I am understanding its importance now. Im not saying life sucks here but its different and it takes time to get used to the difference. Well i started off with something and talkin about somethin else, thats me all confused!
Life seems to be on a downhill now, don remember when it was on the raise but it was steady. I feel like im loosing something, i changing, metamorphosis. ( se the incoherence in my thoughts.. side affects of the metamorphosis)..
Basically am at work.. just put the samples for pretreatment..have to wait for an hour.. so killing time by wasting cyber ink and your time. :-)
well to briefly summarize wat im going through right now.
lonliness
dejected
dippressed
Home sick
hungry
sleepy
bored
confused.